Sally's Final Goodbye Blog
Hi all,
I’m at the airport waiting for my plane, and I just wanted to write one last blog to you all. My last Sally’s blog.
I’m sitting here, looking out at this new life ahead of me, trying to digest the life I’ve just left behind in Summer Bay. It’s so surreal. I don’t feel like myself right now, but I’m sure I’ll catch up, once I get used to this new person that is living beyond the last 20 years of my life in the Bay.
It will be a little while before this lump in my throat disappears. But maybe it won’t ever disappear, not completely, maybe it will just occur a little less frequently, with time.
What a send off I got from all my friends and family! I just didn’t expect the farewell I got. I expected some boring speech day, but instead I got the most beautiful concert in honour of me. Everyone was there! Even Pippa, Carly and Steven made a surprise appearance. I couldn’t have felt more loved than I did at that moment. It was the best day ever. And the song that Annie and the other students sang, it was so, so beautiful. I’ll never forget it. Annie gave me the words before I left, and I promised her I’ll carry them with me wherever I go.
Something else wonderful happened. Mr Bartlett actually gave me a compliment! He said that “although we haven’t seen eye to eye, anyone who can inspire this much affection amongst teenagers must be doing something right!” I felt really pleased about that. The students need a more understanding, open mind to lead them. They are great kids. I think he saw that yesterday.
All these tears I've shed over the last few days, they've been a mixture of sadness and happiness. It’s not just a phase of my life that has come to an end, it is my whole life as I know it. I have been dreading saying goodbye so much, and here I am on the other side of it. I feel both terrified and excited, but more excited about what lies ahead. I know with all this love behind me, Pippa and I will be just fine, better than fine.
I'm looking out of a new window now, and it looks so different from the kitchen window I looked out of every day since I was eight years old. I can still see myself standing there, looking out that window when I got caught having my first kiss, making all my big life decisions, feeling the depth of despair with the loss of Flynn, all my worries, all my happiness - that window saw it all! And now that window is just a memory, that window that looked out over the past 20 years of my life is now nowhere to be seen.
And the house being robbed was tough. I thought it was a joke at first.
Y’know seeing the house empty was strange. It took me back to the first time I saw it when I was eight years old. I was just a child running through all the rooms in awe of its immense space, and now, 20 years on, I have left it just as I found it, but with many, many more memories left inside it’s walls. Beautiful, lovely memories. The echoes of my life.
How am I going to do this without all my friends and family around to prop me up? Breathe Sally, breathe! I don’t want the whole airport seeing me sob. Ok, I’m composed now. It just comes in waves this emotion.
I do see the robbery as a kind of blessing in disguise, a way of wrapping up my life in Summer Bay and starting again on an empty slate. In some way, I do feel a lot lighter.
Leah. I am going to miss her so much. It’s hard, so hard saying goodbye.
And Miles, I just didn’t want to leave him with all that responsibility after we’d been robbed. I felt selfish. Pippa helped me see that I would feel that way even if we hadn’t have been robbed! Sometimes you just have to let go and know you’ve done the best you can and let others get on and do the best they can. Miles will be so fine without me. As I said, even though we were apart for such a long time, he has always been with me, and always will be.
And Mr Stewart. Whoa, he was the hardest to say goodbye to. I’ll always remember his words as I stood looking out at the ocean… “Just close your eyes Sal, you’ll see it, you’ll hear it no matter where you are in the world, I promise.”
Mr Stewart will always be Mr Stewart to me, just like Summer Bay will always be my home. I love that town. What an amazing life I’ve had in it.
But now it is time to say goodbye. It is time.
Thank you for listening to me every week, for joining me on this journey and for all your love and support over all the years in the Bay.
Goodbye, For now!
Don’t you get discouraged by the way,
don’t you let the distance get you down.
Goodbye, goodbye,
for now.
Take yourself down to the ocean soon
Wash away the miles because I’m close to you
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye,
for now.
Don’t let it go,
this good thing that we’ve got.
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye,
for now.
Scenery keeps changing every day.
Go away, the emptiness is easier
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye,
for now.
We’ll be the ones, we’ll be the ones, who show them.
Cause tomorrow you’ll be in our arms again.
Don’t ever let it go, this good thing that we’ve got.
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye,
for Now.
Goodbye, goodbye, for now!
We’ll be the ones who show them,
cause tomorrow you’ll be in our arms again.
Don’t ever let it go, this good thing that we’ve got.
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye,
for now.
All my love
Sally
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