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It has been a huge week for me. Miles is Milco! After all these years thinking Milco was just an imaginary friend I had conjured up when I was a little girl, he shows up in Summer Bay and reveals he is my twin brother! My twin brother! At first, when the story of my life unfolded before me it was so hard to accept. Everything that I've ever thought about my life up to this point, suddenly changed! There was no memory so how could it be real?
But then suddenly a tiny, vague recollection surfaced, and it got stronger and stronger, until I could actually see Miles next to me as a child, and I heard myself calling his name, 'Milco, Milco'. It was overwhelming the emotions I felt -happiness, sadness, anger, frustration, love. It was just such an intense moment. I am still getting over it. I have a brother, and he's the most wonderful, sensitive, caring man - I've just gained something wonderful.
I learnt so much about a family I never knew because it was taken away from me so early in life. I am having to grieve all over again, grieve the death of a man who was my real father, who I will never ever know. It's hard to admit to myself that my whole life has been a lie. For all these years I thought I'd lost my whole family, when my real father and my twin brother had been out there all along. My Mum, who tried so hard to erase the bitterness of the past by covering it up with the new life she had created for herself. Maybe the loss of Miles was too great that she did what she felt was best for her, to forget. But you can never really forget! Maybe she planned on telling me when I was old enough to understand? But that is something I will never know as my Mum took that to the grave with her when she died.
Well I now know that I am not going crazy, Milco really was written in the sand on the beach that day - by Miles.
It was a perfect day really. Discovering that the person you feel this intense connection towards is actually your twin brother and that we've finally been reunited after all these years. Everyone was amazing. And everyone has welcomed Miles in to the fold instantly. This is my family. I am so proud and so happy!
As usual the ups and downs of life ebb and flow and the perfect day was shattered by the knowledge that Johnny Cooper is out of jail and Jack believes he's on his way to Summer Bay!
Apparently Johnny broke out of prison and before he got out he had mouthed off to his prison mates about seeking revenge on Ric and I. I couldn't help but wonder about Rocco's death happening almost a year ago, and that maybe Johnny had escaped for this reason. It just seems quite timely that it coincides with the anniversary of Rocco's death.
Jack suggested that Ric and I leave Summer Bay for a while until Johnny is back behind bars again. But I can't, not now, the new school year has started and I can't just take off like that. I'll be fine. I'll just have to be on high alert. Besides, I have Miles here to look out for me now!
Jack said there will be a heavy police guard about town. They'll catch him, I know they will.
I'm happy that Ric's left the Bay, at least he is out of harm's way. He left with Cassie. I'm not sure why Henk hasn't gone with her? Maybe Cassie just wants a break away? Maybe she's rethinking this thing with Henk? I'm happy Ric is with her, she'll need his support if Henk and her are having troubles.
I haven't really been keeping up with a lot of the other antics going on around Summer Bay, usually I'm within earshot of something. But lately I seem to have so much going on in my own life that it's taking me away from everybody else's drama. Which I have to say might be a blessing in disguise. Sometimes it does eat away at your energy levels. Right now I think I need all the energy I can get, I'm just so busy.
Lucas is leaving the Bay and I feel terrible I missed his going away drinks. Tony and Jack will really miss him. It is fantastic for him though, he is pursuing his career in writing and I know he will do something really good with his life. We will all miss him so much. Especially Annie.
I'm worried about Annie and Geoff. Reverend Hall came out of his operation brain dead, which I believe will tip little Annie over the edge. I'm not sure what I can do? The first day back at school today and I'm already having to deal with Aden's bullying, rebellious behaviour. Apparently he was teasing Geoff in class about his faith and Geoff exploded at him. At first I couldn't believe that Geoff had gone off like that, but then given the circumstances I understand the amount of pressure he must be feeling. And on top of that Aden's making fun of him and Annie! So I let Geoff off the hook.
I'm at home tonight writing this. Roman is staying, he's going to sleep outside my door and Miles will be keeping guard downstairs. I'm surrounded by good people. I do feel safe, even with Johnny out there on the loose.
Love
Sally.
It's Leah here. I'm at Sally's place getting Pippa. Sally has been stabbed by Johnny and she's at hospital in intensive care. We don't know if she'll pull through? I'm just going out of my mind here, and I need to keep it together for Pippa's sake. This is just the worst thing, we're all beside ourselves.
On our way out the door I stopped to look at Sally's computer screen, she must have just typed her blog before all this had happened. Her last words have left me cold... "I'm at home tonight writing this. Roman is staying, he's going to sleep outside my door and Miles will be keeping guard downstairs. I'm surrounded by good people. I do feel safe, even with Johnny out there on the loose."
How could this happen? Nobody could protect her from Johnny! Not the love of those around her, protecting her. We're all so devastated. None of us could stop this from happening.
She has to pull through, life without Sally is unfathomable, for a lot of us here, especially little Pippa. She's everything to her. We all have to send out our preys for her. We need to prey that Sally will come out of this. She has to come out of this.
I'll keep you up-to-date
Stay safe
Leah
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